I'm no doubt going through a bout of the crazies, but I've maintained enough sense to know that it's probably pretty temporary and mostly harmless. It's from a combination of stress, a need to act despite an overriding sense of detachment, and more than anything, too much smiling and nodding while dealing with every sort of ridiculous situation and every type of out-of-touch-with-reality person in the past few weeks. And so, previously-healed wounds are reopened and freshly salted, all my dealt-with quirks reintroduce themselves like little monsters with outstretched hands, and I'm so determined to be a good boy I just let it all roll over me.
As I slowly wake up to this realization today, and begin to gain manna-from-heaven perspective on it all, the ice is cracking and I'm seeing the light. Just a few minutes ago, I had the most fun I've had in some time, surreptitiously changing the language setting on various copiers at work to Russian, Polski, Japanese and some other tongues I didn't even recognize, giggling like a schoolgirl as each screen changed to show options with unintelligible words. A very tiny bit of sabotage, and exactly what I needed somehow.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
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Your cunning stunt is worthy of Amelie.
I'm going to the zoo on Friday, if you feel like playing hooky, you're welcome to join me.
I think we're all depressed.
Wow, the zoo would be fun. Perfect actually. But I've got to do all the things that make me crazy. Thanks though!
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